It’s strange, the word Equality is a noun, has no plural when grammar corrector makes the orthographic verification in my blog, in fact, shows equalities as a grammar mistake. But its antonymous, Inequality can have plural. This omission or mistake with the capability of the corrector is a reality in a workplace. I never wanted to write about my job, or the place I work, or my dreams about a good job. But today was the worst day ever in all the places I worked before.
But let’s make some analysis about where I work. In theory, what my contract says, I’m a financial transaction specialist. Ah? what? In simple English is…I’m a clerk in a finance office. Transactions means just you do payments or reverse payments. I work in that place for 3 year….and so far…I have done just 100 transactions. If you do the maths that means 33 per year. But the truth is I did 100 just last year in ….3 months. While my colleagues do more than 10000. When I arrived the first day, my boss, a handsome guy with blue eyes and fat ass told me that my duties will be to do the input of invoices that we receive in the database “in the future you will do payments and eventually you’ll have a letter to pay” (letter means all company name’s that starts let’s say with letter A or B or C). I said “it’s ok”, I applied to that job so hard…I wanted to leave the other place where I was working before where a BB (beautiful bitch) was bullying me all the time, I never knew she did that because I’m gay, immigrant or just because I wasn’t impressed for her beauty. I learnt at 6 years old, when I had a crush with a little classmate that beauty doesn’t mean kindness or love. It’s not a rule that a physically speaking beautiful woman will be a wonderful person. It can be all the contrary, the BB had big breasts that it looked like she was pregnant of her thorax. And everybody liked her but she was evil, really evil. Well, that situation put me to my limits…I couldn’t stand anymore, she was selling cosmetics products and everybody even the big bosses let her do her business. It was hell on earth. My last salvation was to apply to this job I got now. And I made it.
I changed the job and I stated to do database, filing and labels. Those were my transactions for my first year. I never paid anything. In my annual evaluation the boss told me I would do payments. Some other employees came to our office and they got formal training for do payments. I asked him why were paying invoices when me, I was before them. He said it was their managers asked for formal training. So, I said it was ok, but then, 3 more other employees came under the same policy. In my last evaluation my boss wrote and I quote “Hopefully, she will pay invoices”. Hopefully? I was shock when I read that and I encircled the word with my green pen. I put also I made like 100 transactions like 50 travel claims and 50 invoices. I asked I needed more experience because I got a contract that will expire next year. He said “ok, I will ask the supervisor to give you travel claims and Michael will give you some invoices, at the end of April you’ll have authority to release payments”. I told him “I don’t believe you”, he said “you got the right to be skeptical” .The truth is the group I work most of them are men, those guy do activities outside like playing soccer, BB, they call on the phone etc. Ok, I’m excluded of all that which is ok. The supervisor who had to give more more travel claim to process, never did it. Never gave me one since last year when the boss said to do it. This year the boss “reminded” it to give me claims and until 2 days ago, he didn’t. That’s why I said I didn’t believe it.
Suddenly, last week I had some invoices to pay because another supervisor game work to do which I really appreciated but last Thursday the boss called me to a meeting and he said” You’ll go to another section to replace a person who’s retiring”. I had to pick up my jaw from the floor. I said “they don’t do payments, I need experience to do payments, what if I loose my job?”. He had blood in his face to reply me “you asked for more experience”, I raised my voice like a tenor “I said payments no more database”. “I thought you were tired to do the mailing”. I said “I told you I don’t mind to do the data base or mailing as long as I can do payments”. He said “I don’t understand why are you upset, don’t take it personally, it seems you’re taking personally”. At that moment I wanted to grab my car, run over my boss back and forward, back and forward for at least 17 times. I was so furious, I was stamping the invoices violently, I was crying of anger. 3 years waiting for some payment experience…3 years doing label, filing, believing what the boss said about his promises…3 years for nothing… He said “you’ll start next Monday”.
Why me? I knew and you know, men and women are different. Even if the law says the contrary, we are different, even if in some parts of the world, gay marriage is legal, in the real world, when a gay partner is at the hospital the gay boyfriend or girlfriend despite to have the legal right to be there, will be kick out, the marriage certificate is a paper, just that, a paper. I got a contract to do finance and payments…I haven’t done anything much since then. What I didn’t know about inequalities is there is another difference: being permanent and being under contract. I got a contract, I’m just a little employee with, despite the union says I got rights, I don’t have them. I don’t have the privilege other have…I won’t pay invoices because of that difference. Because some employees feel scared I could steal work? I don’t know, maybe. I shouldn’t say I hate my boss but I hate the fact he doesn’t see or doesn’t want to see things in the office like some employees who doesn’t work, that the fact the supervisor who should give me work didn’t do anything and my boss will never ask him why because they’re friends. I know you have to keep distance between employees and he doesn’t.
What is my new job? Data entry of banking information. I mean, you want to be reimbursed directly, I have your banking info and I put it in a big database…that’s it. Great experience eh?. How long will I be there? Unknown…but I guess long time. Why am I that upset? You didn’t read it or what?. Being in this new position will be very difficult to get out of there. It’s in a open office, no privacy at all, my new colleague speaks too much and the new boss there is a control freak. I’m still thinking is a good idea to grab the car and run him over back and forward for minimum 1 hour.
Promises and promises…when a promise is a lie? does the time proves was it a lie? In which situation are really “equal”? under what circumstances we have “equal opportunities”? I worked in 4 tribunals and I never saw somebody with a reasonable case winning. In fact, nobody won any case. We are not equals, we must fight to reach that paper-equality, not even a contract warrants you’ll do what the paper says you will do.
What to do now…fight…more and more…after all, I’m in immigrant…born to fight endlessly.